Male authority society is to manacle feminine rope to bind.
It is the system because of it and influence not just, more it is it made self-abased sense to the woman.
Abigail him person thinks he is no good, and the tool that lets a woman become the mankind unendingly to breed, is not a right person.
-- big shake
1920 summer, democratic personage Zhang Shizhao ever raised money brushstroke capital, go to a law as student of a few Hunan the travelling expenses of part-work and part-study system, leave the money that did not give out, became one of starting funds of my party revolution.
After 39 years, premier Zhou heads for birthday of congratulate of chapter native place, see a grown-ups and children still squeezes the home, one flatlet was approved especially in the center of, in Beijing historian alley 51.
When Zhang Shizhao and wife and daughter are moved, just knowing is 3 enter a courtyard, chapter madam feels the courtyard is too big, nobody attends around, live not be used to, retreated backyard, how to enjoy old age here.
After 2 old in pairs die, its female Zhang Hanzhi, also be the English teacher of Chairman Mao, be in with respect to as long as Qiao Guanhua of the 2nd husband room this.
Because the house is of given Zhang Shizhao in those days, in belongings consciousness thin time also is not had chase after want house property proof.
2008, its after female Zhang Hanzhi dies, the Ministry of Foreign Affairs disregards the block the way of chapter home later generations, want to reclaim this house, both sides still did a court.
This dare follow the person that the Ministry of Foreign Affairs engages in a lawsuit, be Zhang Shizhao's granddaughter, zhang Hanzhi's daughter, cry big shake.
"The father and mother that I do not know to shake in those days is her entitle ' shake ' , expected her later ' shake ' individual character, one may be met all one's life special ripsnorter. One may be met all one's life special ripsnorter..
Big the name that shake is early predicted all one's life.
01
1961, big shake be born in Beijing, long in historian alley 51 courtyards.
Its mother Zhang Hanzhi has " last renown Yuan of old Shanghai " say, big the grandmother that shake also is a life very cultured woman.
When grandmother is young, of the cheongsam buckle the jasmine with one fresh ball can be put everyday in the eye.
old pursuit plain and neat, the hair combs grain silk is not in disorder everyday, dress and make up has an appropriative silver to provide, drink tea to want to take appropriative violet arenaceous kettle, drink plain boiled water to have bottle of a small copper additionally.
She says: "Never have had seen grandmother such old person. "Never have had seen grandmother such old person..
There are two such elegant women in the home, ordinarily big shake also this are such, but she does not know to learn so straightforwardly with who.
In one's childhood, summer from outside mad play come back, get voice fume yearningly, etc not as good as in crock of will small copper cool leave in vain, she thuds to crock mouth thud fierce fill.
Even if be seen by grandmother, little not homiletic, she also such. Died yearningly yearningly, which remember so much rule.
Chapter home still allocated freezer in those days, vintage freezer has only inside put ice cube ability to last food.
See ice cube for the first time big shake, look at before icy big diamonds, subliminal take a tongue to lick, the result was stuck go up, do no less than coming a long time, when waiting for a tongue to receive a mouth again, above bald verbose a skin.
Again dense bad, it is a descendant of notable family after all, grandmother decided an iron rule to her, must not go up outside toilet. Arrive as a child so big, she uses the toilet bowl of oneself, had not seen other type.
Go up elementary school the first day, honest hold back did not live, went wading female lavatory, see one crouchs, big shake was dumbfounded, she did not think of to return can such.
Later, the classmate knows she is trashy cross a toilet, jest she.
Hit that, she does not have good impression to the school.
02
1970, grandmother died, parents is arrived to work by transfer to a lower level again school, in the home He Honghuang of remnant grandfather Zhang Shizhao.
She goes to school also is 3 days fish two days to bask in a net, zhang Hanzhi is at ease no less than, held a person in the palm to turn to learn to her.
One day, she is lying in the home, maternal staff came suddenly, "Rise, fat girl, your Mom goes to in residence school learning English to your arrangement. Your Mom goes to in residence school learning English to your arrangement..
Big shake dozen small fat, gym is class of her be in distress, the anguish on the body, receive the look that other people sneers at, more painful.
Flat ask for leave, the time is much, the teacher still feels puzzled " how does a month come to this child 4 times menstruation ah. The teacher still feels puzzled " how does a month come to this child 4 times menstruation ah..
Heat broadcasts movie of a Korea at that time, a woman dates to the son inside, the picture that taking the woman says " fat place is good, she can earn 600 workpoint. She can earn 600 workpoint..
Later, big shake to be called in the school " 600 workpoint " , so she is afraid of all the time see this movie.
1973, big Huangying of 12 years old will change the turn of life, she should go abroad studied abroad.
Zhang Hanzhi of mother of no less than says later: "51 courtyards also arrive my this generation, you are walked out of as a child, do not belong to this courtyard. Do not belong to this courtyard..
As the official the clique keeps one of 28 beautiful students, the Ministry of Foreign Affairs sent buy of 700 money dress to expend to everybody, what god-given high comes to children make the clothing to the senior officer is red clothing store, all was done exactly like the dress, blue ash of all of one suit is black.
The message is very simple, even if go abroad, also want a heart to fasten the motherland.
Await in those days, big shake momently the collectivistic education that him engrave gets in domestic place, I am everybody.
03
However this one, be in dazzling United States, won't do at all.
Go to new York, on celebration of enter a school, the man of a with hair dishevelled held a broken guitar in the arms, sing shout oneself hoarse, stage servent is mad also like cheer, big shake a heart to want, of American aesthetic such.
Just know later, what perform on the stage is Bob enlighten human relations, more the daughter that those who astonish is him and him classmate.
But in those days, she does not know these, also press a root to do not have too care about. Photograph comparing rises, how blending in lodging family just is urgent affairs.
Full-fledged member takes care of children of requirement of American lodging family the pet in the home, children are not willing to rise early walk a dog, also be fed up with processing animal excrement and urine.
Big shake remember well " sacrifice for collective small I " spirit, this different that does not wish children to do undertook the whole thing, next, companions jest she is foolish.
She does not understand why to do a good work, still be looked down on, this is too strange.
She begins to consider, what American goes after is fair, I am done today, you will be done tomorrow, go so, it is I am done all the time, this is bully and oppress, want Say No.
Be in abroad personally, but she is twisted all the time cling to parental marriage.
1973, father Hong Junyan and maternal Zhang Hanzhi divorce, this thing is impassable from beginning to end in her heart.
Go back to the motherland later, father Hong Junyan says: "Actually yourself had lived to go, work the thing that often thinks parents. Work the thing that often thinks parents..
Be, I am dry often thinking others, I also have my life.
04
Big shake to learn all the way bully, read institute of woman of made of baked clay a twenty-five-stringed plucked instrument, still be alumnus with Hillary, at this moment already 80 time.
1986, old paean still does not calculate celebrated director, be in big shaking is an attractive halfback artist however in the eye, they are in the United States love.
After 3 years, register in new York city hall marry, old paean is patted " boundless move " , still invite come Zhang Hanzhi, big shake ginseng of mother and daughter to act, that is them when each other are admired.
After marriage, old paean is in direct an anonymous still generation, come out with Ni Ping, Chen Gong however not small gossip.
1993, patted " Xiang Yu the Conqueror fastens female singer " old paean takes award to arrive be irresolute when firmness is needed, greeted the spring on real cause, the marriage of his He Honghuang went cold winter. Or big shake carry.
Other people persuades her, "Old paean bright red big violet, this moment divorces with him, graph what. Graph what..
Say like 3 wool: "Look not pleasing to the eye, multimillionaire also is not married. Multimillionaire also is not married..
Big the answer that shake is: "He looks at me afflictive, I look at him afflictive also, since not be in then so,passed at the same place. Since not be in then so,passed at the same place..
Live racily, him please, just be the most important, name and benefit are empty, houhong shakes in those days with respect to recognize this.
After the divorce, again somebody is by the side of her ear be favored with, old paean new film was shown, won a prize again, her eyelid does not carry, "Bless him, marriage left, involve my what thing. Involve my what thing..
"My mom says, the bad mistake on my body accedes from my father body. Also be really, my father is clever not diligent, I also am; My pa is delicious, good smoking, carelessly the body, I also in that way; My pa has married 3 times, I also full 3, still comparing him small below much circumstance, written guarantee this 3 times. Written guarantee this 3 times..
Big the first paragraph of marriage that shake, it is big 3 married the American that a law fastens; The 2nd paragraph is old paean, the 3rd paragraph is contest of a diplomat Peng.
Now big shake to be together with Yang Xiaoping, yang Xiaoping compared with before a few husbands, did not remain foreign setting, still have the child of an adolescence.
The person indissolubles to this all round, big shake to have: of a word only? Unplug I follow? of of of the apology that bow with hands clasped to fade he is comfortable at the same place, say other and trashy, we are good together. Also wanted even the child together. Also wanted even the child together..
05
She says later: "My this half a lifetime is ripping label to go up alive. "My this half a lifetime is ripping label to go up alive..
Carrying the title of old paean ex-wife, Zhang Hanzhi's daughter, Zhang Shizhao's granddaughter on the head, she also does not want, keep low-key as far as possible so.
80 time, she answers Beijing by plane, somebody knows she is Zhang Hanzhi's daughter, come over to greet sb designedly.
In those days, she is wearing broken T-shirt and jeans, sit raunchily on the ground to reading detective novel.
The someone goes in front of ask her: "Are you Zhang Hanzhi's daughter? "Are you Zhang Hanzhi's daughter??
Big shake " hum " .
The other side moves close to her fably, left look right look, face about went.
Big shake in " the woman with normal blame " say in one book: "Raunchy woman is impossible to be made up when female print owner. "Raunchy woman is impossible to be made up when female print owner..
But she still turned to become magazine editor in chief all right.
Make her responsible pick the title page of a thread-bound book for the first time, she is in dazzling photograph, carried a piece, choose transcribe come out to return consciousness pretty good, be pleased with oneself.
"The title page of a thread-bound book that who picks? "The title page of a thread-bound book that who picks??
"I. "I..
"Apparent ILOOK should rise. "Apparent ILOOK should rise..
"True? ! !!
"Affirmative, I had not seen so ugly the title page of a thread-bound book, ILOOK has dropped after all, so can upgrade went. So can upgrade went..
She still has made outdoors ad, enunciative be " the magazine that gives the woman that has head " , sales volume does not rise to fall instead.
She thinks later, do not love the United States without a few women, the woman that has head also is willing to hear person boast she is beautiful ah, way of this conduct propaganda is wrong.
Then correcting of magazine bold and resolute, from " brains kind " instead " vogue consumes information kind " , editorial office hears, walked along one most, she originally normal workload, break up at a draught times.
That paragraph of time, the office often somebody is buried below book caboodle in a low voice lachrymal, cry to leave his post with respect to meeting somebody. Work in this kind in the process of ceaseless overlay, the notes still went on schedule.
The irritated worry on the job, she had never poured bitter water with Zhang Hanzhi.
One's early years, outer look forward to works, negotiate on behalf of company and Chinese person of the same trade, the other side does not know to be informed her from which is Zhang Hanzhi's daughter, make visit all the time her mom recent situation.
As formidable CEO, be asked state of build up front courtyard by ground of All matters of person of the same trade, indeed very awkward.
Since cannot choose a mother, the profession still can change, she makes the career further and further from the mother.
"I spent time of 20 years to prove to my mom, I did not lose face to her, also spent 20 years of time to prove to myself, I can take my route. I can take my route..
06
Big shake to be flaunted to be in China " house ruffian female " , not be true " ruffian " , dare say true word because of her.
In one's childhood, want to eat ice-lolly, she took 10 money in the home. Ice-lolly 3 minutes of Qian Yigen, the boss does not seek fund, she bought 8 many fund, sit in alley mouth, come the individual divides a root.
How cannot old people also find this money, after coming home, those who ate bellyful ice-lolly big shake, feel as if sitting on a bed with needles. Fair Zhang Shizhao discovers outside big shake incorrect interest, call her father designedly come back.
Tell father of female Mo Re, hong Junyan sees is big shake took money, with respect to be good at teaching: "Lying is one individual worst character, if you lie you are not my daughter, you also are not the person of chapter home, grandfather grandmother also won't want you. Grandfather grandmother also won't want you..
That is big shake first time to realize the consequence that lie, old hind, father's speech still marks ear border.
So she this all one's life is not willing go out of one's way to curry favor, true to oneself, also include to be opposite love is true.
She says to get a lot of words, listen suddenly language piece breathtaking, turning round to think carefully is this flavour really.
Offer a piece of advice girls are not infatuated with big shop sign.
Vogue need not go painstakingly follow what thing, blind pursuit brand is fashionable least of all reflect.
Annoy about duty field sex, she also has " ruffian " skill.
Be annoyed to want to be the same as his go to bed by tasteful manager, reply to him: "OK, but I still have 3 male friend to also sleep with me now, your have nothing to do. Your have nothing to do..
Want to marriage discreet.
Do not marry in order to take off the speed of trousers. Do not marry all one's life do not have a thing, want not to delay the life only.
Previously, she says when the speech, ever wanted to come with Ayawawa a controversy about woman right, assistant of the other side is informed, give 500 thousand ability to arrange schedule for showing motion pictures in a theater first.
Why is not on an economy standard, the controversy also ends up with nothing definite.
Now of Ayawawa " evil cult " cool, we look again big the word word gem that shakes to ever said.
I must become independent to feminine proposal, must can feed oneself.
Do not want a hope to be wrapped to raise, that is kitten doggie, not be the person that has honor.
Your fine-looking consume with him youth, talk about love a few times more, fasten the consumable that becomes a man.
